I had an email from Emily’s (Mz. Em) friend, Michelle, last night that our dear, sweet friend, Em, had passed away yesterday at home.

I’ve spent the entire night trying to come to grips with this, and I can’t. I know Em had a lot of things going on that were very hard for her, but she had just come off a week’s trip to visit her friend, Michelle, in NV and seemed to be doing OK when last she wrote to me, which was after she arrived back home.

When I know more I will write more, but not now. I am hurting too much now for writing (see my most recent Comment).

Michelle wanted Emily’s friends to know about their time spent together at her place in Nevada and wrote the following:

“…My eyes are swollen almost shut this morning and I keep shaking my head… How we laughed until we cried one night over a silly movie! How she hung on to my precious Lancelot (dog) the whole time she was here. How she giggled when she fed my parents’ horses cookies, looking at me saying “How’d I do?” They are beside themselves too.

“I want all of her friends to know what a wonderful experience she had here. I wish I knew how to reach them.

“I wish I had taken pictures.

“I wish I could reach out and hug you. She loved you so.”

In loving memory of Emily F – and may she find some peace wherever she is now.





It’s in every one of us to be wise,

Find your heart, open up both your eyes.

We can all know every thing without ever knowing why.

It’s in every one of us, by and bye.

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22 Responses to Emily

  1. Bex says:

    Reblogged this on Thoughts from Crow Cottage and commented:

    Three years ago today, I lost a friend, whom I miss like mad still, every single day.


  2. Susan Honthumb says:

    I don’t remember how long I’ve been writing to Emily. We both worked at newspapers; we both loved to write. We both loved our animals. I heard from her on February 11th; she said she was thankful that she had Bailey the Cat to keep her centered during a rocky time. I wrote her back, but probably not as quickly as I typically do; our relationship was like that; time would go by and we’d send and apology letter for dropping the ball. I had no clue anything had happened. When my email to her bounced back today, I knew something was wrong. This saddens me deeply, yet I know she’s no longer struggling.


  3. I’ve known Em for a decade, and still can’t wrap my brain around this. Her goodness made such an impression on me. How sad that such a kindhearted person had to suffer so much pain throughout her life. She will be missed.


  4. Marion says:

    Bex, I was trying to remember how to contact you, this is Marion, Em’s sister. I’m rushing today/tomorrow trying to see if I can get out to CA, but how can I get a hold of you? I know how much you meant to her. I am lost without her.


  5. Carol says:

    Bex, please email me. I can’t find your email address.


  6. Carol says:

    My heart is broken. I am so sad to hear this.I am just in shock, but somehow it doesn’t shock me. That may sound bad, so I am sorry. I just have been friends with her online for so long.


  7. Carol says:

    My heart is broken. I am so sad to hear this.I am just in shock, but somehow it doesn’t shock me. That may sound bad, so I am sorry. I just have been friends with her online for so long.


  8. Bex says:

    All I am going to say on this now is that it was Emily’s decision to end her own life like she did. There may be others to blame but that doesn’t bring her back. I heard back from Michelle with a few more details but they are going to remain between us for now. I know you all had the warmest and most loving thoughts for Em and will continue so in the future.

    Life is so hard. It is not for the faint-hearted.

    As I don’t believe in “death” – I believe in Life after Life – I have hope that somewhere down the road I will meet Emily again in some other form, some other place, some other time.


  9. Eric Mayer says:

    Shocking and saddening. She was fighting so hard and with such a positive attitude. I hope she is in some place better than this poor world of ours.


  10. l'empress says:

    As I said, neither of us posted daily. I had a comment from her ten days ago. (She was so good for my ego!)


  11. TopsyTurvy says:

    😦 I wish I knew what to say…

    Now I know why my blog has been so quiet, Em was a big contributor. I’ll miss her comments, insight and support.

    Sending you many hugs, Bex. This month is closing on many sad notes.


  12. Bex says:

    You all dear friends will be the first to know when I find out what happened. I don’t know yet. Michelle said she will keep me informed.

    Emily did an older blog at WordPress that I have just been reading – it is HERE if anyone wants to go back in time with her.

    It’s as if Time has stood still for me today. I can’t move, thinking about Em. I can’t do anything BUT think of her. I can’t believe this has happened.


  13. Nina Camic says:

    Terribly sad. Will you let us know if you find out what happened? In peace, Mz. Em, in peace.


  14. beanie says:

    omg this was so unexpected! I’ll miss her!


  15. Bonnie says:

    I used to read her but haven’t quite so often. I’m sorry to hear this and wish for you peace.


  16. T.S. says:

    Thanks for passing along the word, Bex! Truly a shocker. I have been reading her blog for several months now and it seems like she was going through a lot of healing of some sort of psychological wounds. I wonder what happened?


  17. Dia says:

    Thank you for letting us know. I, too, am in shock. Her cheerful attitude and posts from the beautiful central coast were bright spots, as were her comments on others’ blogs. She will be sorely missed. Safe journey Emily!


  18. l'empress says:

    Thank you. I had no idea! We had been reading each other’s journals for many years, but neither of us posts daily. That is so sad.


  19. I don’t understand. I can’t process this.


  20. Sandy From Iowa says:

    So sad to have her gone….may she be at peace now.
    Thanks for letting us all know…that comes to three now from blogs we read…:-(((


  21. hil says:

    What a sad loss. Sending my love.


  22. Thank you Bex for letting us know. How very sad. I read Emily’s blog and this is indeed a shock. Wishing Emily a safe journey.


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